Dreaming with a broken heart.....

if i knew this would be the ending at the first hand i would have given up earlier... but then i realize it wasn't easy to do that- "giving up" 

i'm not a fortune teller i can't predict, i can't see the future scene of us, i can't calculate when are we gonna meet up again someday and realize our heart still beats fast when we meet each other, i can't guess whether the sake of us knowing each other right from the beginning was a right move??? and i can't .... tell maybe we are much more happier if we didn't meet up???

i'm not a psychologist, which i don know what are u thinking while u kept quiet, i can't read ur mind all the time as well as ur heart, i may guess it right sometimes on what u r thinking but tat is all the help of my 'six sense'. i don't know how to play those tricky relationship games with u..and i don't know the ache from my heart is because i knew it from the beginning that ill never get u but giving up is not easy  because of those fake hopes, fake gaze, fake 'words' tat u've misunderstood me... o is it because i knew that at the end for all the tears that i've scarifies in return is the pain that will cause a deep scare in my heart for ages

but i am a day dreamer tat builds lots of beautiful moment in the air... dreaming one day ill get a chance to see the way u sleep while sitting beside u, even thought is just a few seconds moment... dreaming one day something sad happen and u will come to me and cry into my arms n ill have a chance to hug u gently with my heart that was as pain as urs .. dreaming one day ill meet up the guy tat ill be with for the rest of my life without making my heart ache ... dreaming one day i get to pray hard every day for 'future you'...  but these was jus me tat dreaming with a broken heart... sometimes i find dreaming is a scary thingy especially sweet dreams as it usually turns the other way round.. but recently i find that maybe day dream is also a way to make our life much more happier as we mostly be happier when we dream things tat are not realistic!!! but is all wit a broken heart!!!! n waking up is the hardest part!!!

a song tat recently heard:

" dreaming with a broken heart" by john mayer , which i think is a not bad song!!!